The Bedroom Diaries of a Teen

A letter to a loved one.

2011-11-21T17:17:00.000-08:00

Dear M.

I don't exactly know where this began. All I know is it's lead me here. I'm not talking about the day I met you, I'm talking about the moment you had me under your spell. Words like this have been said a million times, but feelings like this are only felt once. I hate you for making me feel this way but I love you for it all the more. I don't really know what I'm trying to say because love is a very strong word. Love is a scary word when used in the right context at the right moment, but sometimes love cannot be the right word to use. When you hate someone for having a certain power over you, makes you want them all the more, because you know in your heart that the power that they hold can be used to keep you going when times get hard, and you put your trust in that person to do with that power all the good in the world. Maybe that's me admitting that you have some kind of power over me which I don't like to admit you do because I don't like to feel powerless. I guess what I am trying to say that is not that I love you, or that you have the power to control me but when the time comes and those things do occur that I trust you.
You may not be Mr Perfect, but you are more so than anything My Mr. Future.

BABIESS.

2010-08-07T09:26:00.001-07:00

I want one. Well two actually, TWINS!
i'm kidding, well i'm not but maybe one day :D
my twin niece's are just the cutest ever and i think they're adorable.

i wish i was philosophical as i used to be :/

BABIESS <3

Ciao.

Long time no see.

2010-08-05T17:00:00.000-07:00

First blog in a while. Going to try and keep it up this time.
So i can't be bothered recapping the past because i'm too lazy let's be honest but basically college finished, life got shit, i fell in love, life got shitter xD!
and Here i am today :)
I've also become rather obbsessed with Marina and the Diamonds.
Soooooooooo..........
I've met alot of new people over the past while.
The majority i freaking adore ;]
but alot of things have changed in my life and i just want to go back to college now. everyday is just boring.
The whole fell in love thing is abit Bleghhh so i'll go into it another time.
i'll right something more intresting next time.
Daymm it's good to be back ;]

i shall leave you with the song i've been listening tooo alllllll night :)
CIAO.

God's Twisted Design

2010-02-09T13:23:00.000-08:00

Okay so yesterday, (Monday 8th June) i woke up and couldn't move my neck and it was effing killing me and i still had the determination to go into college so i went in and i was litterally walking with my head leaning against my right shoulder asif i was looking at something on it's side and the looks people were giving me were herendous. i mean it was awful just because i had my neck to the side because it was locked or w/e people were looking at me asif i had an arm growing out of my forehead. and it just goes to show that people are too quick to judge and assume things and laugh at other people exspensies. and yesterday i felt like such an outsider.

I'll do another one later becuase i'm really not in the mood ATM!
LOVE YOU LAUREN, KATY, LEIGH, AND KELLY <3 X

Retraction.

2010-01-11T09:02:00.000-08:00

I would personally like to say that i said something in yesterday's blog.
And I quote: "i say all this, whilst secretly liking someone. i'm a sad soul. Help me please :("
TODAY
I have come to realise, i do not one bit mean this. i mean i couldn't retract this anymore than is humanly possible. i've had a great day and realised what a dick they are and that i'm wasting my time and i cba with it anymore.

so yeah, just thought id point that out :)

Ciao :) x

Walking in a winter wonderland!

2010-01-10T16:30:00.000-08:00

Okay so it's been SNOWWWIIINNNGGG!
Well duh, no shit. The UK is all white...
notttt quitee ;]
i'm joking i'm not racist, but Yeah it has been snowing alot.
which means School and College was cancelled for the FIRST TIME EVER.
i mean c'mon it was just people being pussy's let's be honest.
when i was in school school was not canceled when there was a flood (IN THE SCHOOL), when there was a gun attack, when there was a heatwave and the aircon was broke. Nothing would stop our school. xD
i mean c'mon i know were solid and everything but everyone can handle a little snow ;]
i put it down to the goverment being unprepared and quite thick and up their own arses TBH.

Alsooooooooo, i would like to get onto the subject of men right now.
I myself as a man can stand (actually sit but y'know) here and say ALL PRICKS.
All of them, but it's not nice when it happens to you is it. i mean i've gave up tbh. i don't hate men i just cba making the effort to be honest. if someone finds me then i'll give them a chance but i'm just gunna let them find me becuase i'm lazy and people are dicks :).

i say all this, whilst secretly liking someone.
i'm a sad soul. Help me please :(

Night.

The Rambleing's of a GAY.

2010-01-01T22:57:00.000-08:00

okay, so i have something to tell you all...
I'm Bisexual.. :O:O
Omg i know it's a shock.
;]

a man that like other men, i mean it's a rare thing i know
but anyway more to the point.
yes i do like men, but i also like the fact that i am a man.
and i do believe that some people are born in the wrong gender bodies.
but what really really pisses me of is when men wanna be girls but like being men
also known as modern day "Trannies".

Okay so just watch this then i'll carry on.

Right just a little reply to this video to lighten the mood and get you a little less annoyed because i know you probly want to punch the screen right now.

1. People tell you how to wear your hair, because it's a mess.
2. People tell you not to wear make up because you should wear a mask.
3. I Don't give a shit if your names "Kyle Hilton"
4. Whoaa. I would not bow down to you if you were 10x the queen you think you are.
5. I don't have an obsession problem with your life, you do, Hense why you post it on youtube.
6. Your life is not better than mine as you spend yours talking to a camera
7. Yes i understand now stop talking to me like i'm think because i know i'm smarter than you are.
8. You are not the queen of anything and you do not know how many things are wrong with that sentence.
9. If you're going to say "Alright" say it properly.
10. You couldn't get cock even if it wasn't free range.
11. I bet you mother is sooo proud.

Thats just one example of scum of this earth tbh.
I suffer from discrimination because of people like that, i get stereotyped because of people like that. and they'll be people reading this blog thinking, oh it's just another gay person going on about his rights and how it's much harder to be gay well tbh yeah it is and it's because of stupid gender confused attention seeking wankers that makes my life 10x harder than it should be because they want a couple of thousand hits on youtube and maybe a chris crocker type media buzz.

I am quite happy to stand here and say, I am a MAN who Likes MEN.
I am Proud to be a MAN. and i am Proud to like MEN.

You get the point.

Night x

That Boy is a Monster

2009-12-28T16:34:00.000-08:00

So right, i'm gunna ramble on abit as my mind is spill all over the floor so i might as well put them into a blog.
okay so karma might aswell be the subject as i've been thinking about it alot lately. i seem to question it alot but i do believe it but it only shows up when i do something bad and it kicks me in the arse :/
i mean i don't get it, i'll be nice to everyone and everything and all i get is solitude i mean as in i get absaloutly nothing i just get left alone. then i think of myself for once and do something that'll make me happy and it karma shits on me to put it bluntly.

i mean all i want is one person to have to for it not to be a secret and for them to be my trophy and for me to be their's but it's not going to happen i might aswell just paint the smile on my face and say yeah i'm fine like i do every fucking time i think about my life in detail. i mean my life isn't bad there's people who have worse lives but there's people who have better lives and they still complain and it annoys me becuase i don't and i still get shit on. i mean when people complain to me and get upset about things that are 10x eaiser that the problems i have i just wanna slap them becuase i cba with it but i put up with it and tell them it's gunna be okay becuase fuck me you only broke a fucking nail your life isn't over GOD!

i wish i was rich :/
i wish i was good looking :/
and i wish i wasn't so depressing lol.

CiAO X

Well Here ends anothe year.

2009-12-24T15:54:00.000-08:00

Eventful year?
kind of, but tbh i think i've done a year in about 6 months.
it's gone to fast to do anything major and i can sit here and say IT'S BEEN A GREAT YEAR. When tbh i've had better years. Yes this year has been life changing and so will every single day in my life let alone a full yearr hahaha!
i'm looking forward to next year, gunna make a brand new start and i mean it.
i'm going somewhere in life and i'm going to change.
Remember this face world ;]
Ciao :) x

Perfection

2009-11-15T16:05:00.000-08:00

Okay, so what is perfection.
it can be explained in so many ways. but each way of explaining never gets close to what perfect is because the explanation has to be...well Perfect.

Let's face it we all strive to be the best that we can. unfortunatly for some people that just isn't very much. but that's though fault of their own. some say perfection is how you look. Blonde hair is perfect! well erm i need brown...oh wait it's no longer perfect.

so if you managed to understand that well done. if not i'll break it down for you.
Perfection is sooo many different things. it's so many different things that there never is an exact explaination of perfect.
you all agree?

well why are we striving toward something that doesn't exist.
it's like, trying to flying to Mars on a pigeon.
or go to the bus stop and the bus come straight away.
or having a low fat, low calorie bar of chocolate that doesn't make you fat and guilty, it's just not going to happen.

so listen people perfection is not a miss world compitition.
it's not world peace.
and it's certainly not you people who think you are god's gift.

So come on people LIVE A LITTLE.
Jump over a fense that tells you other wise
Use a pair of ladders without the proper training.
RUN WITH SCISSORS!

LIVEEEEE!!

Peace Out ;] x

Time.

2009-11-06T08:35:00.000-08:00

Right. Who thinks this year has gone fast?
Because personally i think it should be about May LOL
It's not nearly Christmas.
it can't be like really it can't be.
i still feel like i should still be in Highschool.
i really really love college but it doesn't feel quite like home yet.
but it's not because of college it's because of my body clock.
it's still may 2007 in my head. life goes to fast.
people rush though life not caring, taking it year by year. it's like stop!!
there's such thing as a day. take life day by day and enjoy every moment.
i mean so many things have happened this decade. some very tragic but some amazing things for the world. Let's face it. Were all scared of the future so we all just need to stop and smell the roses before we all die from swine flu and the plague. Honestly!!
Live for the moment and love life!!
Take Care
xx

Caught in a Bad Romance

2009-10-20T16:26:00.000-07:00

Erm......
what's happened in the past week...
i went to see UP With Daniel and it was Alrright they compared it to Toy Story and Monsters Inc. But it just wasn't worthy of either film, it was just another film unfortunatly :/ but i enjoy watching it i must say ;]

i honestly do not know what to blogg about atm, although i am very very scared about college tomorrow as i have a tap assessment and i have to sing solo and it's going to be the scariest day at college ever!!

it's late, my minds empty....as always hahahaha funny. no.

Ciao :) x

I line them up and watch them Fall

2009-10-13T04:53:00.000-07:00

Blogggg, Mwhahahahah
Okay so i've not written one for a while
so sue me :)

So last week i stayed at Rosie Posie's all week, well most of it anyway and it was really good :D we had hot chocolates and stir fry's and i really enjoyed it. life without anyone to tell you what to do is Goooooood :D
and here comes saturday
okay so on saturday me and rosie went to work which i enjoy but omg i could have killed the parents in there like seriously they're so picky and annoying and half of them didn't even need to be there honestly i hated them, the boss jules said to me last week (my first week) that the worst thing about the job is the parents and i didn't believe her...well i do now! and at one point i was serving at the cafe and the time warp came on and i started dancing to the time warp full out and it was just so good and they wanted me to start a dance contest with the kids but i was like noooo xD
and then it came to the night and it was party timeee :D
so i went back to rosie's as she went to meet connor and joe. and i got hayley on my way and a soon as i got there i had a small cup of vodka blackcurrent and lemonade and then started getting ready as fast as i could and soon enough once i was ready people began arriving and the party soon got started and after more drink and a few beyonce booty shakers on the table i was soon enough head in toilet nearly being sick then i was sick then i was sick again because hayley made me like really proding my stomach which really hurt and the next thing i know i woke up with a really bad neck and an immense headache and hangover and i was curled up in a ball anywhere i could find and eventually had some toast and i was fine :D then i took a look at some of the thing which got broke and some of the things that got broke reallly shouldn't have got broke xD Haahahahhaha but it's all well and good now :D

but if i'm honest if the things that got broke got broke in my house i would have done this.....

HHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Ciaoo x

How do you like Your Toast in the morning?

2009-10-04T14:39:00.000-07:00

I Like Mine with a Hug...

Anywayyy
Liking the new logo? Yesss..
i knew you would ;]
Yes it's meeee :D JamesJoee!
and i'm in a really good mood!
I Love college i mean it's like awsome and and and! i got me a job!!
i had my work trial on saturday and it was amazing everyone who works there is really nice (well everyone that i've met)
i mean it just sooo good!
i'm Oh-Verr the person i liked which is good times!
at the moment i'm just really loving life!

right soo things actually to talk about.
Saturday night at Antony's dads. i don't think i've laughed that hard for about 1 year. i mean me and antony were in stitches laugh at everything jared said (no offence) but it was absaloutly fucking hilerious. and there was this other gay guy there. sat there just chilling and his mate was just laughing at me non-stop i mean okay i was being funnier than useualy (not to blow my own trumpet but i was) but i really don't understand and i couldn't help but think that he was doing nothing but judgeing me and i wouldn't mind if i looked half decent but i looked a state xD! do all men do that? just gay men? i dunno. does everyone do that?!?!

Also i have re-found the love of POKEMON! i mean c'mon who doesn't love pokemon really! i've been playing on my DS again and i'm in love! i mean i'm clearly amazing at pokemon :D

anyway yeahhh
i'm gunna get to sleep now!
i have no video for you this time :/
i'll blog more often though PROMISE!!
Ciaooo xxxx

BLOG RAPE :|

2009-09-28T14:35:00.000-07:00

okay so i've been meaning to right a new blog for about a week now and finally i'm being forced to write it by Katy :|
TBH i feel rather violated ;/
it's awful
but anyway....

yeah college is a little erm.... strange. i miss my old group as i have been moved twice and i miss both my old groups and am not falling in love with this one like the others, but hey i'll get over it. andddd i'm already behind on my work which i'm gunna do after writing this blog.

i'd just like to say, i really like Cheryl Coles new song, Fight for this love.
"Too Much Of Anything Can Make You SICK...♫♪♫♪"
Good Times :D

i'd just like to say, that the rides on the college bus home are the most epic rides ever, i actually love them! we just laugh all the way home and insult eachother and it's just so good :D

also theres a guy and yeah, guys are dicks ;/ the guy knows i exsist. just i'm not a priority but hey, who gives a shit becuase obviously he doesn't and i'm sick of not being wanted TBH. it gets really old and boring i mean it's just like Urghh :/ i'm so depressing really.

oh and there's this girl in college. BIGGEST ATTENTION SEEKER EVERR. LIKE SERIOUSLY. it's just really funny because noone gives a shit in college and she always gets shot down and it's so funny!!
and she is so pathetic and she is OBBSESSED with twilight. like not even funny. i wrote "TWILIGHT MUST DIE" and she went off in some massive strop and has 1200 pictures of Robert Patterson on her phone. i mean if thats not weird i don't know what is.

but yeah i'm really enjoying college. making more and more friends it's all good times. and some people i really do love as they are such amazing people :D

but i do miss highschool :(

Anywayy.... Erm...
i've gotta put something at the end.
lemme jus browse youtube :)

i mentioned it so here's cheryl cole :)

Ciaoo x

What if.....

2009-09-21T14:14:00.000-07:00

i really really thought college was going to be WOW AMAZING OMG LOOK AT ALL THESE PEOPLE OMG I CAN'T WAIT TO GO IN OMG OMG OMG.
Frest start, Fresh everything!

I was wrong.

i mean i do find it okay but if i'm honest i'm disapointed.
i did really enjoy it the past 2 weeks i loved my group and today we changed groups and if i'm honest i do not like the group change atm. it could be alot worse but y'know it could be alot better. anyway moving on from depressing issuess :/

Ermm... yeah got nothing else to say TBH
i just want to be someone else...yet again.
Boring i know, but shit happens :/

Ciao.

I'm Your Biggest Fan...

2009-09-15T16:09:00.000-07:00

Tap-Heal-Toe. Tap-Heal-Toe-Hop. Tap-Heal-Toe-Hop.
Yep, i had my first lesson of Tap Dance today and TBH i can't Dance for SHIT xD Why atall am i on a musical theatre course. i can't sing, i can't dance and i can just about act. HONESTLY! But hey it's good fun while i'm doing it :D

And Did anyone see Lady GaGa's performance at the VMA's. OH MY GOD! That woman is someone to aspire to She IS Amazing. Male, Female, Fucking Rabbit with the head of a giraff i don't give a flying fucking what she is becuase she's fucking HOT and she can fucking put on a SHOW! I'll link you at the end :)

And also i think Certain individuals seriously need to stop. like really just stop and look at themselves in the mirror like seriously. becuase they think they can say one thing to everyone and something else to everyone else and bitching about everyone to everyone and it's just quite Shallow and Padantic. and if your going to say or do something live up to it and stop insinuating things and saying you didn't say it when okay you didn't say those words but if you say "i've bought cake mix, added eggs and put it in the over" your still saying "i've made a cake" (thats not what they said i'm just useing it as an example) so just live up to it and stop trying to turn it round HONESTLY.

Also, i'd like to say Heyyy To Josh! who lives to far away to care xD
but who cares he's a farmer anyway Hahahahahah xD
Love You Josh :D x

Also i think it's bed time :)

http://www.dailystab.com/lady-gaga-mtv-vma-performance/
WATCH IT LIKE RIGHT NOW SERIOUSLY.

Ciaoo :) x

A-Chew!!

2009-09-13T16:47:00.000-07:00

Thats Right. Here begins the flu seanson, and here i am with my yearly cold which lasts till...NEXT YEAR!
Urghh i hate being ill. like Really.
On Friday we came out of college at 5:30 and i wasn't being picked up till 6:45 so lauren kindly waited with me while other people were waiting to be picked up and goddd did i feel ill. i felt blooming awful. my nose was running i was coughing, i was tired, headache, stomache ache, hungry. i just wanted to go home. Seriously. when i eventually got home, katy dragged me to tesco and back and she forced me to stay at her house where i felt very very very ill indeed :(
But Katy and Helen Looked after me :)

And Today i spent the whole day talking To Josh Hyland the FARMER xD
He's going to hate me for saying it but still it's True xD
Josh your a funny guy Love Youu :D

right i'm going to end this here becuase it's late,
i'm ill, i'm tired and i wanna go sleep!!!
Night :( x

Why does it always Hurt the First Time?

2009-09-08T17:00:00.000-07:00

Well...What a title xD
i'm sure some of you filthy minded people are thinking Whattt?!?!
Well i do not mean that atall...
i mean COLLEGE!!!!

Yepp i starrted College today and it was Immense and it was just arghhh,
okay i maybe overexadurating there...But it was good.
it was mainly dance today, that was rather hard if i'm honest
and my thighs are killing! but i was made to show the dance more times than anyone else in the group (75 people) around 8 times i had to do it, most people had it do it 4 times ;/ it was so unfair!

and sometime i got the dance dead on, and sometimes i was just an epic failure and it was just like bleghhhh!! also we played Keep-E-Up-E. 75 people 1 foam ball just keep it up with your hand, you'd think yeah thats easy it's like you clearly have a massive advantage. you do not, the game is very harrd, there's no twists like you can only hit it once then you sit down or blah blah blah, just keep the FOAM ball in the air. it's not easy atall, i think out max was like 26? XD
it was funny though it was really really funny.
i spent the whole day with Lauren, Katie, Emma, Paige and Dave or Adam? i can't remeber his name xD but it was good :D
Yeah it wad good, but i'm going to miss being in lessons with all my friends and it's just :( becuase it's all sad timess :(

This brings me onto a next point,
shall we say Blog Part 2?
Subtitle: How Friends become Faces.

Okay so i was thinking today i saw two people. i'm not going to mention names but i saw these two people today, Both were my best friend at one point in the past 5 years. Both stopped taking for certain reasons some more reasonable than others but we shall not get into that. Anyway how....Isn't it strange how someone you call your best friend can become a complete strangers becuase both of the poeple i saw did not say a words to me or barely looked at me but both noticed me. i mean i'm not bitter about it becuase i've moved on as have they but it makes you think doesn't it. just becuase of words people say, or things people do or even just a simple change of enviroment can change people and relationships in such a dramatic way. i mean c'mon if you really think about it, who was your best friend when you left primary school or high school or whatever. Are they still your best friend now? Do you even still speak to them now? i mean the people who were my best friends in Primary school i do not even speak to anymore. infact that makes 3 people i've saw today. a friend from primary who went to a different high school i did not even look twice at i've not spoke to him in over 4 years. strange isn't it.

Argh....... i'm thinking too much!
Sleep Time!!!!!
I'd just like to say Hey to katy becuase i know she's reading this while i'm at college becuase she's at home bored and probly watching dirty dancing even though her dvd is sick of playing it it's skipping bits xD

Night Peeps :) xxx

What A Week!!

2009-09-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

Okayyy...i'm going to start from last thursday RESULTS DAY!! :|:|
Okay so we walked to school, it was a longg walk!
and it was just daunting and horrible knowing that our future has already been decided and we didn't even know what it was but other people did!
it just seemed cruel and unfair! TBH!
but anyway we got there and some people were excited, some people were putting them selves down even though they knew they weren't going to "eppically fail" so when they got their results they were happy happy happy they didn't fail and so many other emotions. but overall i was happy with my results and so were many of my friends, but to the people who didn't get the results they wanted, you have my thoughts with you :)
but hey, shit happens xD

Anywayy that night i went to Reasheath with Sarah (Reasheath is the college she is going) and it just looks amazing as it's a live in college and it just looks so peaceful and wow i want to go there! and me and sarah were pretending we were twins and it was just so funny!

and then from Friday - Monday Me and Sarah went WALESS!!
it was soo good :D
on the friday me and sarah went to the beach and ended up going in the sea fully dressed it was just so awsome and on saturday we went to rhyl and in the sea kind of there and i had to walk rorund in girls sandals as my shoes were WRECKED! and on sunday we went to Rhyl Fun in the sun which was like a festival thing which was really good saw some good bands but there was this girl, EWWW fucking sket urgh she didn't half piss me off but Hahahah she got what she had coming to her, she decided to start shouting abuse to the presenter and Ooooo did she get torn to shreds it was classic and she was shouting "i can sing better than you" so he said to the guards to lift her over the fence so she can come on stage and sing so they went to lift her over and she ran off it was classic and urghhh she was from MANCHESTER :(
PEOPLE LIKE HER GIVE PEOPLE LIKE ME A BAD NAME!
SKET!

Anyway on tuesday i went to get my college stuff and i've spent about £200 and still not got it all :| but the stuff i have got is rather important :)
i forked out £50 for a pair of tap shoes and they are THE SHIT, Seriously they're amazing and i'm in love with them!
they're so smart! and i bought other stuff and i love it all, EXCEPT! A Dance Belt. i bought it, but i don't love it, if you don't know what one is Google it they're AWFUL!

Anywayy i'm gunna end it here but not before i post a Video that has made me LAUGH!
And also has stuck in my head!

CIAOOOOO,X

Cherry Cherry Boom Boom.

2009-08-23T18:04:00.000-07:00

Everybody's falling down down down...

Okay Blog Timee...
What to talk about.

THE FACT THAT COLLEGE IS IN 2 WEEKS AND I'VE NOWHERE NEAR READY.
&+ THE FACT THAT RESULTS DAY IS ON THURSDAY AND I'M CRAPPING IT!

URGH. LIFE.
Anyway onto a happier note...
erm...
Katy Hughes is a Legend and there is a video of her singing on youtube and i'll put it on at the end xD!!
Honestly i feel like i'm doing something most days now but i actually have nothing to right about which must mean i don't have a life actually.
Oh last night me and katy stayed at my dads and we watched 300 and we saw BOOBIES. and we went to meet Jamie and Cody and when we got back to my dads Jamies went straight to sleep and me cody and katy watched xfactor and it was so funny. but if i'm completly honest i do not like the new audition layout. it's awful. i much perfered it the way it was. it was alot funnier!
and is it me or has Danii gone alot quieter? i mean like she barely said a word. and it's just...i exspected more.
Also the new gameshow the cube was awsome, i cba going into detail but it was very good!
Okay so this has been more review then blog
My hair looks somewhat decent now that it's grown, and ive never realised how much my hair actually grows and how fast it grows :D
Ermm...let's go to the subject of college.
i'm actually shitting it TBH i mean i'm excited to meet new people and everything. and i've decided to just throw myself in at the deepend and not be nervous and just be Yeah!! fucking bring it on! i means thats the best way to do it right and i'll either swim or drown and once i drown it becuase academics! which TBH is looking like a good option right now.
And also my relationship problems aren't as bad as i thought and TBH they're not really problems. all i know is i'm happy being single and thats all that matters :D
So Yeah Good times all round.

And yeah...People who've been bugging me to do this blog JOSH AND KATY.
I better get a thankyou :)

Peace out x

BTW Here's that Video :)

Pardon?

2009-08-18T18:12:00.000-07:00

Okay, BLOG TIME.
As i've been slacking lately
but At This Very Moment, my emotions are all over the place i mean it like whhaaattt?
i mean i like this person and this person and i wanna do this and that and go here and there and blaaa blaa blaa blaa blaaa.
TBH i don't know what i want. and i'm always like that.
it's annoying to others and to me. i'm always the one who wants to make everyone happy but in the process hurts one or more people always including myself. so personally i think i'll never be happy till i only have one person in my life. but for now it's like arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i mean c'mon life isn't meant to be this confusing till your having like a mid-life crisis right?
who ever said being a teenager is hard...UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE DECADE!
Urgh, i'll be a monk. THATS IT. A MONK. but i don't look good bald.

ANYHOWWW......
i had my haircut today.....Yeahh, i also bought a hat today xD!!!
Seems like a joke, i'm being deadly serious. i hate it i hate it so much i actually want to cry. it's not that i miss my long hair, it's that i look awful!!
everone else said they like it....but i think they lie!
but the hats nice :)

Erm.......Intresting fact, i spent £15 on take away in the past 2 days.
and i wonder where my money goes. HAYLEY!

Also, i've got 3 weeks till college, and i've got NONE of my stuff. it's going to cose around £250 for all the stuff and ive not got a single penny of that yet. takes the effing mick really but i'll get it done. somehow. eventually. maybe. hopefully.
Arghhh!!!

i'm just rant now becuase i'm so overtired i'm wide awake.
Did you know cheese was made from milk?
Hahhahah
MILK
MILK
LEMONADE
AROUND
THE
CORNER
FUDGE
IS
MADE!!

Should i go now?

Yeahh...
Peace out :)
xx

Busy Busy Busy

2009-08-14T19:43:00.000-07:00

Okay, so i've been meaning to writ a blog for a while but i've not been at home this week as i can't stand being at home because of the place and the people. but thats another story. i've been spending alot of time with friends which has been really good and i've had such a good time :D
Can't seem to get rid of certain people, DANIEL Hahhahaah i'm kidding :)
i don't really know what to write about except youtube has been really good lately and i'm gunna post 2 video which really made me laugh!
you actually have to watch them :D
oh, and i've not started a Vlog, and i'm not going to, it's too much effort.
i can barely keep up with this one as you can tell.

also lately i'm really starting to worry about college and the stuff i need to get, i priced it all up nd it's around £250 which is money i have not got but hey, i'll get it all sorted some how.

anyway i really can't think of what else to put.
so, heres some laughs from me to you :)

Hope you laughed as much as me and my friends did :D

Ciaoo x

The Clock's Wrong.

2009-08-03T18:34:00.000-07:00

Iyorrrr!!!

Tbh, i have absalotly no idea what to write about except one question.
Should i start a Vlog?
For people who don't know (Katy Hughes) A Video Blog :)
i have been pondering on this for about 2 days now and i'm still not sure.

Also my sleep pattarn is seriously Fooked and i really need to get it back into pattern like normal or i'm gunna be screwed when i get to college xD!!
latly i have been spending most of my time with Hayley and Katy and they're not good for me as i now have takeout pretty much every night and sleep in till abot 4 and keep my up very late xD!

Erm, i actually can't think of much more to say TBH, i took some new photo's today and put one on facebook adn got really good feedback which i am very happy about :D
and Had a good time at Matt's last saturday and sunday morning was effing hilerious and katy knows why!!

Erm, Shoutouts? Why not!
CJay Cool Dude!
Daniel Too Nice To me
Hayley needs to do what i tell her
Katy's foams too much
Bathany makes me piss
Kelly i miss you
erm...
if your reading this SHMILEEE!!!
:D

Ciaooo :) x

Shwingggggg!

2009-07-31T09:27:00.000-07:00

okay, so last night i was like Uberrr! Depressed over something that is rather pathetic tbh but it's not going to change so what the point in trying right? but i've decided to write a blog now becuase i'm actially in a really good mood for no apparent reason :D

The last few days have been really good, the main point being the party on wednesday which Daniel came down for and met some of my friends and it was a really good get together but i was only drunk for like 10 minutes then sobered up again XD and Daniel drank a full one of my WKD's so i had some of his vodka which is what got me drunk for 10 minutes, but eventually the night calm down after an argument between two people, so we chilled in the living room and eventually fell asleep which was very uncomfy so when i woke up beucase i was absaloutly boiling i got up stole the convers that katy and Daniel were using on the sofe and used them for myself on the floor becuase it was cold on the floor ;/ but over all very good night :D
eventually me and daniel went back to mine and got Some sleep then got ready, and leigh came round :D then me and daniel went to town so he could go home, after he had eaten and slept and bathed XD
Then When we were in te train station along came CJay and we all got KFC But...they had no cheesy bbq roller's :( Bad times but the snack box was fit!!
And then Daniel went home and not long after that Cjay went home and i was left to walk to the bus stop and sit on the bus home alone ;/ but leigh rang me so it's all gravy babyy :)
then i got home and was very very tired and rather upset (See last blog XD)
then Hayley came round and we organised her party and then she went home and i spoke to CJay on msn and he cheered me up a little and we've decided to have another epic walk round town sometime soon and then i fell asleep whilst on msn (SORRY CJAY) :)
and woke up and was like shit!!
and a few hours and a chicken and mayo bagel later i'm in an epic mood so it's all good times :D
This is a step in the right direction for me :D

Ciaoo Peeps :D
Comment the blog xD

Ciaooo xx

Get me out of here...PLEASE :'(

2009-07-30T16:17:00.000-07:00

i'm sick of it TBH
i'm Bored of it, it's old, frustrating and quite depressing.
TBH i'm sick of being...ME
i mean let's be honest here, i am my sexuality, my life revolves around it and it gets boring. I'm a cliché. and nothing good ever comes out of acting the way i do, yes i have friends but TBH i know they'd be there no matter if i wanted them to be or not becuase i'm the type of pushover that gets told off alot by my friends for being silly. i mean i wouldn't even mind it if something good came out of it, but it just doesn't i mean i could be straight and be where i am now and be alot happier becuase i wouldn't get the shit that i get on a daily basis. i mean people say it's only a word it can't hurt you, but when it's being said to you again and again it gets drummed it and it sticks and it hurts!
i mean, have you ever wish you were someone else,
wait i'll rephrase that
have you ever wish you were ANYONE else.

So c'mon someone change me, break me or fix me please becuase i'm obviously a fucking toy, i don't last forever i'm here for your evertainment and i live to serve.
just don't put me away.

Bang Bang...

2009-07-25T19:06:00.000-07:00

what to write a blog aboutt.....

Erm, well i can start by sating that i have sorted myself out and am feeling alot better about the whole situation and i have come to terms with it all and i'm not giving up but just not trying and going to settle for what i get :)

Erm, work has began on my house as they are doing up all the concil houses and they're scaffolding all around my house and me and sarah has a good climb on it and it was very very funny XD Good times!

The builders are nice to speak to, not exactly a sight for sore eyes and very noisy and quite annoying and they keep wakeing me up with is sooo irritating :@

Erm Also Josheph Stringer Text me the other day? i was like Whaaaaat? XD but the guys cool and always nice to see coz he's a nice guy and currently in a situation i was once in myself and it's always good to help :)

Daniel's coming down here on wednesday for a a party which shall be good times :):)

Hayley wont leave my house and it's kinda really weird XD it's a good thing i love her

Me and Sarah went on a bike ride this week all the way down to the subway in Woolston and then rode back which was an awsome day and night :D

erm, i'm tired now so yeah

Ciaooo xx

SlipAway

2009-07-23T02:00:00.000-07:00

Okay, so i'm feeling really really down, basically i don't understand whats happened really. i mean okay i'll look at the reality of it it was never going to happen but i could see it, it was almost so clear i was sure of it but without even touching it, it disappears into sand, running though my fingers when my hand were nowhere near it. Crushed TBH. But i'll deal Like i always do, i'll get on with it Because i always do and eventually i'll forget about it like i've never managed to before but hey, it could happen. It's a pretty good god damn thing i can fake a smile isn't it! Urghhh! I'm probly just being pathetic but hey everyone has to vent we just all have our ways.
C'mon Let's just get effing messed up!!
Bye.

So Messed Up!!

2009-07-20T21:07:00.000-07:00

okay, so i've decided just to write one every so often...much easier :)

So i'll give you the latest, i got my ear pierced again by bethany just a few hours ago after hayley did bethanys which hurt her alot xD and me hayley bethany and katy had a good night in and right now hayley is asleep next to me and i can smell her hair as we died it before :)

Erm, also i've began reading a book called Cry Silent Tears by Joe Peters, it was recommended by Sarah and i'm so glad she did becuase what i've read so far is amazing :D and i can't wait to finish it!

i've not been doing much as you can tell Hahaha, i'm going ballet later with lauren which should be fun :D
I've got quite a few parties coming up this month and then it's off to college :D
Good times!!!

i'm off to carry on with my book now so Ciaooo

oh oh oh, i'd like to say GET WELL SOON DANIEL :D:D
Lot's of love Jamess!
xx

Peace Out :)
x

Period Head :)

2009-07-16T11:49:00.000-07:00

just a little catch up while i'm not swamped with people loving me and wanted to be me and live with them and be their friend, finally i get some time alone :)
And to say, atm i'm making a chicken and mayo begal :D

So yeah, my hair is "red". it's not red it's really dark red if it is you can only see it in the light slightly and i call it "cherry red" becuase it sounds alot cooler. Katy died it for me, why i don't know becuase she did such a good job with sarah's but sarah's isn't as bad as she makes it out to be and it's only semi-permanant so it'll wash out, so it's all good :)
And latly my diet is just awful, i've been like barely eating and when i do it's actually crap like charcole girll and shit like that, i'm not not hungry latly :/

OMG Yesterday Me and Katie M, went to MoveIt presentation which was really good seeing everyone again and stealing all the pictures and everything! and there were 2 dancers there.

Dancer 1: An industry proffessional, she's been dancing for all her life and she's made a really good living out of it and she loves her job, tbh i don't really give two shits about it but y'know who it was, IT WAS THE GIRL OFF THE ROCKSTAR DFS ADVERT!! THE ONE YOU JUST WANT TO SLAP AT THE END XD

Begal time :)

Anyway.....
Dancer 2: was a guy from Pendelton College who did pro-excel work and he's was actually a really good dancer and quite cute too xD he was really nice to give me and katie his e-mail if we had any questions xD Hahah, he's a really cool dude :)

Hayley Holroyd satyed last night and we had a good laugh and she was speaking to me on msn while sat right next to me becuase she is sad like that and i love hayley holroyd :) Lord did she make me laugh that night as she was being very stupid and stupid and hayley don't mix! XD

Alsoooo, Before i went to the presentation, Sarah was here and i recorded which i will be putting on Facebook which is actually hillerious!, it makes me laugh and when i put it on i will inform you all :)

Oooo, Today me and sarah went on a bike ride, which was actually really good, i biked it down irlam then we went though irlam moss to come out at the barton stretch and then down the new road then around flixton then back to irlam then back to sarah's where we chilled for abit, i got my tired pumped up and then me and sarah went some of the way towards my house and on the way i poisened a slug xD which was rather fun.

and when i got home i got immensly bored so i decided to write this blog.
So yeah.
ciao :)

i was in the mood (:

2009-07-12T08:41:00.000-07:00

Okay so i'm in the mood to write a blog and probly this is going to be the only blog actually worth reading becuase it's not about my day xD it's just generally me ranting on about whatever and whoever springs to mind.
So yeah, now i'm stuck xD
Today i'll just tell you this ive had Man in the mirror in my head for the past to days so i decided to listen to it on youtube and yes very good song very good artist (RIP MJ) but i'm sorry but there was people in the audience fainted and crying i mean c'mon it's a bloody song. and y'know what more food them, there the one's who've paid the money to be there and fainted so yeah two words. OWN FAULT, there missing the show ^^
Also, another youtube story Fergi and John Legend - Finally. i thought it was AMAZING like i didn't know the girl was so talented i was seriously shocked and the song was very good. So yeah i reccoment watching :)

Latly i've been thinking ALOT about things that probly shouldn't bother me but for some reason and i've come to realise i probly need to change how i approcash situations and i probly need to care alot less about things and situations and what other think of me. Also i need to get out more becuase i'm sick of being in my room alone.

Erm, yeah so you've most likely already guessed i'm writing this out of boredom as noone is speaking to me on msn and noone is now texting me and i'm just Chillen ;) in my room listening to Finally by Fergie.
oh and i've finally realised that alcohol can make the dullest of times amazing and funny, okay i already knew this but never really experienced it as when i get drunk i'm already having a good time and i was at a party on friday with my dear kelly and we both knew if we didn't get something down our necks it was going to be dull and sooner or later we did and the night just becuase hilerious with some man who looked like a pedo from the 90's dancing on his own and then doing the time warp and swing dancing to mambo number 5, Awsome Night :)

Also, i can't wait to start college but at the same time i'm really scared as it's a completly new enviroment and i am like kinda shy when i'm put in situations like that but hey, Bring it on :D

Also, i miss school :( i miss seeing everyone on a daily basis and laughing at the most childish situations in lessons and i miss teachers and everything about the place. sad i know but i actually do :(

Anyway i can't really think of anything else to say :/
Here's that youtube video of Finally :)

Ciao :) x

Sugababes - Get Sexy I Love It ;]

2009-07-07T18:17:00.001-07:00

I'm So Sexy It Hurts ;]

2009-07-07T18:05:00.000-07:00

okay so today, i've actually been in bed allll day xD
i woke up at 2 but before that my sister had woke me up trying to ask me to babysit everyday till i go back to college and apparently i said yes?
doesn't sound like me but Hey an extra £20 a week will do me nicely ;]
so yeah when i actually woke up i went downstair and made cheese and brocali pasta :)
then i went back to bed and all i did was sit on msn and facebook till around 9 when jordan said that he is going to pop round and he actually did and we had begal's and talked about his diet she shit and then we went and i decided to have a chicken and mayo begal which was fit then i sat on msn and spoke to Daniel, Darryl and Katy and Katy made me absalously cry my eyes out with laughter, Daniel put me in an amazing mood :D and Darryl was being Darryl xD

Quote of the day: If only my Personality had a hole ;)

Hahahahahaha Good Times :)

Ciaooo x

3 Boys, 4 Girls, Tears and old man and Bacon and Toast

2009-07-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

okay this is yesterdayyyy :)

i woke up after about 5 hours sleep and it was 9:30 and i dove out of bed and put the bath on and then woke kelly up asking her if she would like some breakfast but she didn't and she put big brother on (Urghh) and i went to get a bath and after like the quickest bath ever i got out got ready and left (late) for town :)
So i sat on the bus and the bus took ageesss to get to town and the old man infront of my smelt of something not ver pleasant, eventually i got to town and walked up market street and then found Daniel and Darryl in a phone box hiding from the rain which made me giggle but they steped out into the rain and off we went to the arndale as i wanted a boost butttttt couldn't find one so i settled for some fresh orange from super drug then we went for the bus and we began to chill and i decided to be ignorant and went on facebook :)
Thennn Sarah text me and long story short she came to my house with us and then we were chilling in mine and i was whooping Danny's arse on Guitar Hero and then me and Danny Decided to strighten Darryl's AFRO (Yes an Afro xD) and we did it, Sort of xD and then Sarah wanted cheese on toast so i said yeah go make some so off she went down stairs then she ran back up and said "did you know steve was here" i was like Whaaaat? and well and truely there he was chillen with a glass of cider while we all made cheese on toast and then while i was cutting the cheese (no pun intended) daniel said "he likes cheese but not that kind" i was like OMG he did not just say that while steve was there and i had to go out the room and i was like Arghhh What to sarah and then Daniel came in and said that he could hear what we said becuase we were really loud xD
Anyway we eventually went back upstairs put some music on and Daniel and Darryl went to Smash Bro's while me and sarah danced to music and i tried to remember provious dances that i had done and then Daniel and Darryl started giggle at me and giving me the shake of shame thennnn we were all sat round the laptop "judgeing" people on facebook and i started dancing whilst sitting down and then Daniel began to Hand Dance and it went like this
1. Hand up spread fingers
2. head whip to front
3. rotate hand and head from side to side and the same time

Hhahahahaha Sorry Danny i had to xD
Then not long after that we got on the bus back to town and all the way on the bus back home me and Darryl were taking the piss out of Daniel's hand dance which was Hilerious, too bad he didn't find it so funny :)

Then when we got to town we were stodd in piccadilly in the most random stop just barely talking and just looking around xD
Eventually we walking Daniel to the train station and said bye with hugs :)
then Darryl took me and Sarah to Kripsy Kreme :D i got an orginal glazed with rasberry filling :D Yuuummmm
Then Darryl got on the bus home and off me and sarah went home then Hayley Text me asking if i was home and that she had ended it with mike, and when i got home there was hayley sat in my side garden with katy and i brought her into the house got her some paracetamol and bacon on toast coz i love hayley then i made myself some and katy took a bite out of my toast HOW Rude!!
Then eventually we went upstairs and we decided to put some music on and we come to the conclusion if your going though a break up my itunes is not the best thing to pick a song from as everysong had some reference to love or breakup xD

After lot's of Tear, Tantrums and Bacon Butties they went one, Katy before hayley and Hayley and mike ended up together again ;/
and i spent the rest of the night on MSN mainly speaking to Daniel about the Day and Me ;/ and how we have so much in common xD
Thankyouu Daniel ^^

Anyway yeah that was my day :)
and a good one at that :)
So yeah Ciao peeps ;)
xx

Prom!!!!

2009-07-04T17:49:00.000-07:00

Okay so yesterday and today have kinda been just 1 day so lest begin the story at 3pm on the 3rd of july xD

i woke up and i was rather excited it was prom i get straight into the bath a did everything possible in the bath, shaved, washed, expholicated so i was completly ready and then i get ready and then my belt decided it was to big for me so i had to make a new hole in it and it was very hard to make this hole and at one point i was looking for a drill to make it xD
Eventually i was ready and my mum and i walked to Hayley where my mum was stupidly trying to take picture of my whilst walking down the road, i mean C'mon what was she thinking. then when we got to hayley i felt famous it was like 20 pictures at once it was so good and once everyone had arrived more pictures were taken then the Stretch Hummer came and picked us up :)
once we set off we had the reasuring comment from the driver *Where am i taking you* and it was great trying to direct the driver to old trafford and eventually we got, somewhere and we had to walk round old trafford 1.5 times to find the room where we were and we got there and i must say absaloutly everyone looked absaloutly amazing i didn't have a bad word to say about anyone except myself if i'm honest, i honestly wish i didn't wear what i wore. but later on the meal was finally server and it was alright, the desert was minging but otherwise it was a nice meal :) and the party was amazing it was way to hot, i was sweating my back out but dancing with drunken teachers and people i will cherish for ever the night will never be forgotten. them limo on the way home was rather arkward in my opinion beucase of bethany pointing out she she didn't like chrissy in a rather rude way if you ask me wording it as: I love everyone in this limo excpet one certain stipid slag which did actually annoy me but i'm not one to open my mouth. so prom comes to an end, but was the night finished? it was not. so i went home then off me jared and kelly went to nikki's and then we were joined by a fair few others and the night kicked off rather quick with alcohol and me getting drunk to fast for my own good and before i knew it people were leaving, i don't really remember lots i remember just being in the living room with a gob full of pringals and just begining to laugh at Hayley for no reason and soon to be on the floor in full blown histerics and trying to climb the stairs still in histerics for no reason, and opening my gob about things that i shouldn't have and Kayleigh (Nikki's sister) and her mates getting me even more pissed by making me neck tvx which made me rather ill and then the next thing i knew i was was outside on the front chillen on my own becuase i though i was going to be sick and then louise came out a joined me and god knows what we spoke about but all i know in mid sentance i get the feeling and ran to the grid to be sick and i could hear louise heaving and i was "trying" to tell her to go inside and then before i knew it i had stopped and the nabour was offering me a glass of water then i went back inside and the katie was sick and then we were chilling in the back garden and thenn i was in the conceratry chilling with sarah and rozzy (nikki's brother). then evenually we got bacon and sausage butties and then me and hayley somehow managed to walk home. then i went to sleep. there is so much i've missed out for 2 reasons. 1 there was so much that happened and 2 i'm to tired. so yeahh.... night :)
x

Daniel McTasney Made me Cry!!

2009-07-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

Okay so i've not wrote for a while,
so i'm gunna write what i can be bothered to write xD

Erm...Yeah i had a good Birthday (26th june;])
except my dad was a totall prick and yeah he took me for a meal WITH HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIENDS FAMILY FOR HER DADS BIRTHDAY! :@
But i got over it, like i always do :)
and the next day Leigh took me out to pizza hut and we went shopping becuase i love leigh and she's is the shit when it comes to shopping xD

but toher than that the past week i've done nothing :/
oh oh oh.
i went to pendleton college on monday :D
i can't wait to start :D
but i got the kit list, wow it's going to be expensive :(

But yeah PROM TOMORROW :D:D
Good times :):)

So Today i got Sims 3 (IT'S CRAP) it's bassically just the sims 2 with a little more room to move it quite pathetic.

And tonight i've been having an epic convo with Daniel Who earlier on made me cry as we were talking about out issues and i get really upset but then slapped a smile back on my face :)
++ he also has got me addicted to metro station xDxD

So yeah Nighttt :D
xx

I Like It Rough

2009-06-23T17:17:00.000-07:00

Okay so i've had an amazing few days :):)
Here's the 22nd of June 09 (Yesterday) -

i woke up in a starngers bed (Katy) and i ran out the house instantly, i'm just kidding but i did leave early to go to warrington with Sarah but katy didn't know she thought i was going to spend time with the mother and i met sarah and then we went warrington but i left my phone at home and then when we got to warringiton we went to the hair extensions place and we were looking thought them all and sarah picked out some but she could only afforrd 1 and she needed two and we were chatting to the woman (who was very nice) after i pointed out she hap lipstick on her chin and the very nice woman gave sarah 2 for £17 :D
personally i think it's becuase i was so charming and lovely ;)
So when we left we went to McDonalds which were still seving Breakfast and i got a bacon egg and cheese bagal :D Fittt then me and sarah were playing with icecubes and then i got a OREO MCFLURRY (They did them last year and they are Phittttttttttttttttttttt) then Katy rang and i was like Arghhhhh but when we got home it all sorted out and me sarah and katy went town and jared tagged along the bus ride xD and i got some Phitt clothes from Primark ♥
And whilst in the arndale food place i checked my facebook and changed my status and on the way home there was a mass raping of my status with over 90 VERY RUDE comments Darryl and Daniel you know who you are!
and when i got home this rudeness continued on msn. and i discovered some very intresting facts about Darryl and Daniel ;];]
It was an amazing conversation
Then i took a new picture which i LOVE Btw
Check it out
www.facebook.com/jamesjoe ;]
It's my profile i love it.

Then Daniel came back online and we had an INNOCENT chat Again and it was lovely :)
Till he went without saying bye xD
Then i went to bed :D

Today 23rd June 09 -
Okay i'm going to keep this one short if i can xD
i kpet being woked up by a fly in my room and it was knockint me sick and then kelly rang me and we went to school to try and do IT but it didn't quite work xD
so we went to tesco and then went back to kelly's for her to get changed then back to mine and played guitar hero eventually i went out and kelly went to Sarah's then i knocked on for hayley then bethany then me and hayley went bank then charcole grill for food then to zoe's then tesco then irlam then home :)
and me and hayley stopped in kashmir and had a cheesy chip naan and when i got home MY LAPTOP WAS HERE :D:D:D
and here i am now :D

So yeah....
Ciao for nowww :):):)
x

I Like it Rough...♫♪♫♪ ;]

The come Down.

2009-06-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

ive been being very lazy lately so yeah ive missed a couple xD

18 - 6 - 09
So it's the morning after britney and after louise went i just felt really pooey i mean like really i was in and out of bed i was bored, tired and lonley it was awful so eventually i went on msn and i got cheered up by Darrly xD
eventually i went out and it was actually a really good laugh.
We went to the bell dice and then walked over to the canal bit and we saw a sign reading "Dead Slow" and we decided it was Claire :)
Then we walked over to Teletubby hill and played Hide and Seek and Me and Lou won :D
Clearly we did Hahahahah
Then we bagan to walk and and i drop in to see Lorraine (Zoe's Mother), Becuase Lorraine is Amazing :D and she was cooking Salmon, (And Hot Lovin xD)

So yeah we went in and eventually i went to bed xD nothing really happened that night on msn.
Oh Waitttt i spoke To Dear old Johnathan who has a Girlfriend xD
Hey Joniii xD

So yeah.....

19 - 6 -09

Yeah so yesterday Katy was meant to be coming mine so we could make our CV's But then we got invited to JK's so we decided we would go there and also we debated about who to go see like in concert so we've AGREED on Stephen K. Amos :D
So i went to go get a bath and when i got out i had messages off bethany asking if i was going out, nudges and one messages reading "are you not coming out because you think i'll kill you?" Hahah xD
Bless her but she was offline by the time i got out :):)
So yeah we went Jk's and had a good time
It Was:
Me
Katy
Danny
Jamie (JK)
Billy
Tom
KT

Right i'm getting bored now xD
we went home and i went bed ;)
Hahahah

Ciaooo :)

It's Britney Bitch ;)

2009-06-18T03:52:00.000-07:00

17 - 6 - 09

I woke up at 11?
to a girl either side of me ;) Beth and hayley and they went home stright away and i was left alone :( but then i decided to get ready and get a bath and so forth so...i went on msn xD and began speaking to Kelly we then spoke about how attractive we both feel and she asked if she could borrow the Wii Fit and i said yeah. then i got a bath and kelly said she would be on her way round about 30 mins later she came look oh so fit i must say in her mothers coat xD so i gave her the wii fit and then i got ready and off i went to Leigh and Lou's where Leigh cut and filed my nails ^_^ and lou got her stuff ready and we had a curry :D then m and lou went back to mine a did the final preperations for BRITNEY so then we looked at the bus time table for coming back bareing in mind the show would have finished at 11. the last 67 was at 22: 43 and the last 100 was at 23:13 so we would have to run or if not run to oxford road to get the train xD
We were laughing about it but deep inside we were scared xD
when we got the MEN we were buzzing and the time went so fast and before we knew it the Big Apple Circus were performing which was AMAZING
i have to mention that our seat were good in my opinion, but we were sat inbetween an old couple who sat there with face's on them and a loner who was just sat there smileing at appropriat times and with a pair of flashing bunny ears Ahahahah xD

Right so it opened with Big Apple Circus and they were amazing some of the things they did were just Wow and there was a head banging Dwarf!!!!
xDxD
Then Britney came on and what an amazing show.
My three favourite bits:
Everytime - The whole arena was singing along and it was just WOW
If You Seek Amy - I just Heart that song in General.
All the Video's - They were all actually amazing xD

Overall the show was immence and i got a shirt and a poster xD
And the show finished at 10:30 and we got home at about 12 becuase we went to Charcole grill :) we got in watched Family Guy twice, Mock the Week and fell asleep during Horne and Corden :D

So Yeah :)
AWSOME DAY XD

Ciaoo :):)

Just Another Day

2009-06-16T18:00:00.000-07:00

This morning i woke up many times not by choice becuase i kept getting woke up asking about my bloody printer,
Advice ask me something when i'm asleep i will always answer 'I don't know' even if i do basically it means i either don't know now fuck off, or i do know now fuck it.
and if you keep asking me i will get VERY annoyed and will get louder everytime you ask me will you believe that i don't know.
Eventually i was left alone.
Then woke up to a text off Hayley asking me if i was going in school,
i was mean to be at hers for: 10:30
i got the text at: 10:26
i woke up at: 10:28
CRAP
Then i got another text saying "God how long do you wanna take?"
Then that very second i got a knock at the door, it was Hayley :D
She SORTOF made me a cup of tea as i got ready and eventually we left.
We went to Drovey's Diner on the way where we sat in and hayley had a bacon&sausage on toast and i had a pint of orange, they were both very nice ^_^
On my way out i god made to put pots in the sink as they love me there and i saw my aunty Debbie who i hadn't seen for Agggeeessss i love my aunty debbie :D

We didn't stay at school long as we couldn't be bothered and we go the bus home and when we got to mine hayley went on Animal Crossing on Wii and it is very shit i never go on it and then she went sleep on my bed i had the funnies time waking her up by putting my speaking on full blast and suddenly playing songs that are really loud really fast :)
Bless her she kept on pooing it :D
Oh and we also burnt pizza and kept of insulting katy on the phone without her knowing which was very childing but very very entertaining for us xD
Then Hayley went home to go swimming but came stright back as her mum had already gone and eventually Katy and Beth came aswell and we got caddy and Liam (my brother) came round and started winding us up and it got rally annoyong omg i hate my brotheres especially liam i hate him with a passion he's arrogant, vain, childish and an overall prick and a Bully. Urgh.

Yeah i feel like this is dragging so i'll fast forward.
We watched Notebook and then Katy went home and Hayley and bath ended up staying
We then watched the grudge and i was shitting myself becuase i hate horrors but i'vr not laughed so hard in ages as ihave the power to make any horror funny and it was HILERIOUS.
Then i came on the computer and instantly felt like crud but Jack Cheered my Up :) Thanks Jack :D:D
Now hayley and beth are asleep and i'm sat up writing a blog that noone reads xD

But Yeah, Hey Jack Thanks for cheering me and and Reading this epic Blog Hahaha

Ciao Laters :D:D
BRITNEY IN 18 HOURS!!!!
XXxx

The Plastered Smile.

2009-06-16T06:27:00.000-07:00

okay so i got up and got the bus home, it was a vveerrryyyy long bus ride ;/
and on my way down lord street i went to beth's where she was CHILLEN in her PJ's on FB and not long after i got there her dad came in and sarted going on at her about being messy which i found funny becuase Beth, Being Beth insisted she wasn't (She Was) bareing in mind that it was 2pm and she was still in her PJ's but had been up since 10 xD
Eventually we went upstair where she got a shower and got dressed and blah blah blah blah blah xD
Then we took Tess For a walk (The worlds Best and well Behavied dog)
I Swear to god that unserstands english, Honestly xD
She ran about on lord street park feild and bless it :D
Anyway eventually we got to mine around 4 and beth as perusual went on guitar hero and we completed it finally :) (The last bos took us ages)
Then Beth went to Get Cig's (Urgh Smoking, Tut)
And Jordan Came round and beth came back and while Jordan and Beth Shagged i was on the computer,
For anyone who doesn't know when they didn't shag Jordans gay and beth has a boyfriend but they might aswell shag they do everything with their cloths on xDxD
Eventually they Beth went and after that jordan went but msn that night was amazingggg!!!
I was Mr. Popular :)
i had 7 very active conversations and all of them amazing xD
I got told i was liked and the feeling as Mutual which plastered a smile on my little face :D Gosh i (L) msn :D
Eventually the conversations slowly became less but the ones that did carry one became more meaningful and deep :)
I'd just like to mention the people i did enjoy speaking to on msn:
Daniel
Karl
Darryl
Hayley
Sarah (Even though it was for her entertainment bitch)
Grant
Katy
And Everyone else Sorry i forgot you xD

So yeah yesterday i went to bed with a plastered smile and a head fully of happy thoughts :D
And just to tell you Todays been goo so far :)

Ciao for Now :):)xx

The Weekend in June

2009-06-15T07:45:00.000-07:00

Okay let's start with SATURDAY -
i woke up becuase my phone was going off and it was very pleasant phonecall off Leigh asking me if i wanted to go to hers to a BBQ, Good times
So...
i went back to sleep ^_^
Woke up again at 12:23 and finally got out of bed and began to get ready for the BBQ but had nothing to wear so i had to go in scraggy cloths and SUSPENDERS xD
I Got Gabby and then we went and had some very phitt burgers and i really Can't be bothered going on about it as it was packed with good times like Mine, Leigh and Laurens Conversation about highschool and shoplifting xD
Eventually i stayed there and bless my mummy i had to prove to her that i was that becuase OF SOME FUCKING STUPID PRICKS IN MY YEAR.
but anyway Yeah Awosme day xDxD

SUNDAY -
Yeah, i'm not gunna speak about sunday for reasons :)
But it was Very funny and mint!!
Thats all you nosey people need to know ;)

Ciaoo xxx

The Day Manchester Ate Me&Kelly

2009-06-12T17:55:00.001-07:00

Okay woke up after a crap night sleep at 12:24 :(
i was suppose to be up at 10 to get ready for town but i got stright up anyway and put my phone on charge as i fell asleep listening to music as i had no TV to watch :( but yeah got up and began to get ready for town eventually became ready and fter raving and looking at myself in the mirror for about 1 hour ;) i went to kelly's then we went to the train station where we sat and on the other side there were two CHILDREN who have wagged school and thought they would be hard to toy fight and set fire to paper xD
eventually the train came and we got off at deansgate and decided to walk and guess our way to where we neeeded to be xD it was an amazing walk! we took pictures as we becuase Tourists, we walked round and became POSH TOTTY and then found ourselves surrounded by HOBO'S!!!
Good Times So how Come way we found ourselves near the wheel and then we went into HMV where Kelly bought SIMS 3 Then we got food and took pervy picturs of strangers and went back to kelly's she installed sims 3 and it.....didn't work. she was nearly in tears bless her she was so angry i know the feeling :(
but eventually i went home as she went Sarah's
i got home and then went TESCO to get buns for my tea and mum wanted petrol and i got a call of JORDAN the guy who is never there xD
He came round for a bit and if i'm honest ive missed him he's a mint guy, Engaged and i must say he had a vary nice engagment ring xD
But yeah he stayed till like 11 we had a big catch up :D
When he left i went on msn where i started talking to people then Darryl added me and i was speaking to jonni and Darryl and atm i am still talking to Darryl about Porn and it's effect of boys xD Hahahahahha

Night :)
xx

Boring Day, But URGH

2009-06-11T15:48:00.001-07:00

Right today i actually did nothing.
i woke up wrote past blogs
made pasta and went on msn
made more pasta
went on msn and facebook
and here i am.
Sad i know
But i'm gunna speak my thought now something ive not done on here.
Some people don't fucking half wind me up when it comes to being who you are
you've probly heard it before so if your that much of a small minded person exit now.
Right how come people make a judgement as soon as you tell them one thing about a person.
Let's take the word GAY.
Generally people assume gay with Pink, and Fluffy running around naming everything with a "She" and being "Camp"
Okay let's do it with the word Straight shall we?
Straight = You don't even think about hugging another man, you never cry, you play football and could knock everyone out and drink beer.
What i just said is a lie.
Wether your straight or gay or something inbetween someone your sexuality defines who you are becuase of fucking stereotypes which is fucking stupid!!
It's exactly that same as saying Blondes are thick, Brunetts are Boring and Gingers are outcasts.
why can't some people get it into their thick skull that everyone is different and just becuase someone can do something or is something it doesn't define their whole person becuase we are all capeable of doing the same things.
ARGH SOME PEOPLE FUCKING GET TO ME :@
i may have contradicted myself in this but tbh i don't really care if you have half a brain cell you can probly tell where i'm coming from.
Thankyou :)

A BLEHHH...!

2009-06-11T06:12:00.000-07:00

Okay so yeah, i forgot to write again xD
So here's yesterdays and the day before:
9th June 09 -
Woke up EARLY Urgh.
But i got ready to go town and went. got me some suspenders and met up with 2 of my mates and went back to their flat and chilled there for a few hours.
went to the bus Station where i was attacked by two bad chavs (Hannah and Ellis)
She didn't half shit me up as she came behind me hugged and kissed me
in the prosses of meshing side of her face to my eye made my contact fall out bitch xD
Then after laughing at a hobo the bus came and i suddenly felt like shit
so i was curled up in a ball all the way home.
evetually got home chilled and went bed coz i felt awful.

10th June 09 -
I woke up to a knock at the Door this being Hayley Holroyd
She had came round to do Revision for my last exam Scinece.
This was VERY funny.
E.g. Why do Roots have Root hair Cells? So it can look good after going to the hairdressers.
Eventually after abotu 1 hour of revision i went for a bath.
i opened my bdroom door and on the landing there is a bee.
i SCREAM like a bitch and dive backwards into my room and slamming the door
Hayley at this point was very shocked as was asking what the hell was up
i told her it was a bee. She burst out laughing. Bitch.
i got the jug and my RE folder becuase noone likes RE.
i let it go outside coz i'm nice but it wasn't flying so i threw the RE floder it was on and that was the end of that.
So i got a bath and felt as fresh as a daisy and then we went to school.
we were greeted by Leigh, Claire, Lou, and Maxine. Where Lou and Claire were explain Osmmosis. These are their words:
Osmosis is the diffusion of water particals from an area of high concentration to an arse of low concentration though a permeable membrane.
They clearly had it down.
Eventually we had the test and practically everything that was on the test me and hayley revised that morning and if we hadn't revised i would have failed hands down. but what made me giggle the most y'know what wasn't on the test. OSMOSIS!! XDXD
it made me giggle so much.
Then we went home and we got katy and me katy and hayley ended up at mine and we order Caddy Fried Chicken and i had a meatfeast!! OMG Fit! It's my pizza i always order and i love it :D.
The we watched Step up two and went upstairs where hayley fell asleep and katy went home.
Evenually Hayley aswell went home and i was on my own and i'm going to stop here becuase i'm getting bored. 6 DAYS TILL BRITNEY AT THE MEN :D:D I CAN'T WAIT WOOOP

Ciao Ciao :)

2009-06-08T16:48:00.000-07:00

Okay forgot to do it yesterday- Damn

So yeah heres,

Sunday -

Woke up at my dads and was STARVING

so i went downstairs and i opened the cupboard

right this bit happened in slow motion xD

i opened the cupboard and something fell so i put my hand out to catch it

what was it?

a Bloody CACTUS

It bloody hurt it did sitting there pulling the spikes out but yeah eventually when

most of them were out i chilled and watched Britney Live in Las Vegas then

got my mum to pick me up coz i'm lazy

Then i rang kelly to see if she was going to stay at mine but she was still at Sarah's

rang again, Still at Sarah's,

rang again, Still at Sarah's,

rang again and she'd just got home

and her mum was "being a dick" and she couldn't stay

so eventually Beth ended up stayng and we had a laugh xD

played on guitar hero and winding her up :D

she went to sleep around 2 i went to bed around 5:30 and beth woke up and was like you knob head Hahahah!!

but i was up speaking to Jay (Jaga), Karl&Mike (mainly Karl), And Shen :D

ABOUT POLITICS XDXD

Funny Times :)

Then i went to sleep Finally.

Okay so we wake up about 2 and it was mint

i had a mint sleep and i woke up to beth rolling ontop of me

hugging me and telling me that she loves me

than adking for a pizza with donna meat on xD

Eventually we went down stairs and got up

made bacon butties and had a brew :D

then we went upstairs and played on guitar hero for ages

and at 6 went and baby sat

Well i really didn't even though they were my neices i went and made nutella on toast for myself :D it was very nice.

then we went back to mine and i got changed then went to beth where she had a shower blah blah.

eventually we went out only to find it was Jared, Kelly, Sarah and Carl.

Well 1/4 aint bad right?

Ahahahahah

So me Antony and Beth walked upto tesco and ant got a krispy cream doughnut for 15p

then we went to caddy where Ant got the most fucking disgusting thing ever it looked like sick.

Margarite with donna meant on and mayonaise and yougrt sause

it look blooming disgusting.

eventually i got home and ant was getting annoyed with me winding him up which was funny!

and then i sat on the computer and herre i am :D

Right that was it

Ciao :)

Erm, What?

2009-06-07T06:21:00.000-07:00

Yeah i forgot to write last night,
so i'm writing this..Afternoon? xD

Anyway got up and went straight on msn and was talking to the usual people,
and then Rosie rang and in her usual way asking me like it shouldn't be ask
you doing anything today?
so in the end we went trafford and we decided to get the 20 oast 2 bus
and i got ready had my "Breakfast" (home made chicken and chips) Yum.
then come 10 to 2 i was ready and walked up to rosies said hello to he mother and went to her room and she was doing her hair, explaining what she's using and it's hold factor, very interesting xD

Eventually we left and got the bus which was PACKED but we eventually got a seat when mr monotone slow voice himself got on the bus Tom Smith. Me and rosie had a very good conversationg about how his voice goes though us xD!!

We had a good laugh in Trafford especciall at the Fashion for Aids in H&M which were very funny :D
Then i was very thirsty and got a drink from McDonalds MmmmmmCoke :)
Then off we went to thorntens where rosie got chocolate drizzled brownies Mmmmmmm ^_^
so we sat to eat them and rosie was feeding me some and like a 30 year old chav runs past and pretend to nick them which made me laugh so much at the fact he was actually so apthetic to do something like that, honestly.

So then we decided to go have fun in the apple shop and we took some lovely pictures :D which will be going on FaceBook :)

Then we eventually went home and two girl sat behind us had got on the wrong 100 and needed to go to manchester not warringington and their laughs were going though me so much :@
then i got home and got changed and got ready to go my dads and went to the bus stop where i sat for half an hour not knowing wether there was a bus at the terminal so i went in and as soon as i sat down a bus went past ;/ i was so annoyed but then another bus went to the terminal so i went to the bus stop, and waiting another 30mins ;/

but nothing really happened when i got to my dads :/
i got food at like 11:30 and went to bed and then Shen text me :)
and we had good conversations and eventually i went to sleep :)

So yeah, i'll tell you about today, Later :)

Ciao for noow :)
Mwahh

The Day Katy set on Fire :) 5-6-09

2009-06-05T18:45:00.000-07:00

okay, started off like any other day at the moment,
but wait i'm just going to say.
Thanks for reading Lol
i didn't think anyone had been reading but apparently
you have :D

Anyway...
as soon as i woke up Robert Brown rang to remind me that were going out.
take in mind that i just woke up and i just though meh i can't be bothered
so i got up and went on my computer as always.
kept checking my facebook, looking for something but at this point it didn't come.
So. i went for a bath was very refreshing.
and when i get out i look at the window and it's raining.
i was just think urgh i was in the mood to go out :(

but then it came to my as my mum came into my room
(once i was dressed obviously xD)
she said those magical words "i'm off to work now"
FREE HOUSE!
so i get straight on facebook and i'm like
Rob free house it's at mine now :D
then conversation started and accused me of flirting with him Haha

so i got ready and about 2 HOURS LATER
Sarah and Katy came round
we were in the kitchen and katy being katy grabbed a slightly deflated
3 year olds toy ball and started throwing it around and then started throwing it around
in strange positions lol.
then i get on my phone and went on facebook.
what'd been waiting for...still hadn't got there.

and hours later when rob and billy still hadn't arrived with the BBQ
i was starving so we decided to make some sausage and bacon butties
half way though making them. guess who arrives.
yes rob and billy WITH FOOD
so they go in the garden to start the desposible bbq :D
Burgers and S..S...Tubes of Custard Hahaha
Personally i didn't have a sausage becuase they look very burnt but billy had one
and the way he described with was like a tube of custard.
also when ever we put new food on the BBQ it went alight which
katy nearly set herself onfire with and rob burnt himself alot.
then it began to rain so we called it quits and i had discovers that the disposible bbq
had burnt my floor :(

when we were in the kitchin...Chillen
i checked my Facebook.
I Got what i wanted. it was nothing big. but it was there none the less.
so i was happy.
but laterr on when everyone went. it brought on another low.
another night of wondering and thinking how pathetic i am.

but anyway yeah it's dragging.
i went upstairs watched family guy. spoke to shen and he rang me :)
had a good conversation with David (there's ur mention xD)
and i am currtently at up in bed.
watching Being Human on BBC3
And am about to go to sleep.

Night :D

Two Highs Make a Low.

2009-06-04T15:55:00.000-07:00

Okay i'll start from last night, when i was inbed i was just proper down.
i was thinking about the two highest points of the day.
and they suddenly made it become a low full of confussion.
Bad times :(

I got to sleep around 3:00am and woke up at 8:30 (apparently)
becuase kelly rang me and i apparently answered i don't remember
then i woke up to my mum asking me to babysit my necies which i cba doing.
but she kept asking me questions and i vaigly remember says "I Don't Know." alot xD

Eventually kelly rang me at 9:25 asking me to go to go in school to do it so i thought what the heck. why not.
so we went in and the amount of times Miss Yearsly said my name to do my work was amazing, i get easily distracted alot of the time. we had a good conversation about how miss yearsly saying "Chillen" is my message tone and we got onto the topic of jamstar (that stupid thing that robs money off you if you buy something off them) and how we should send in the chillen to jamstar and make lots of money.

then me and kelly went and got diner and when we got back there were some year 8 girls singing becuase they want to enter britians got talen, NEXT YEAR. i'm sorry but you have loads of time, i need to do my IT. but they were singing and me and kelly were talking and we Got SHUSHED. like what the hell atall thinking there hard when they're clearly not xD

Later on me and kelly were waiting for people outside the English exam when we distracting people and we got moved by miss moley mole (miss Smithe) :) then we chilled in the sun laughing at all the ugly children xD
Then hannah came and i showed her a certain pictured of someone. and her exact words were.
"Chubby, Haha instead of love handles, Bum Handles" she clearly isn't funny atall.

later on me and kelly went to Jamie Kemps where we had a good laugh and i thrashed Christina at air hockey.
but the high light of the day was when we were about to leave jamie's and his dad comes out and jaime says to his dad that kelly want to go in the porsh, YES A PORSH and off she went and she came back like wow that was amazing. and OH YES JAMES' TURN
We went 117mph in 8 seconds, scary esspeccially on the motorway xD
then i got a chip barm with curry from Leighs chippy and went home
ON A NEW DOUBLE DECKER 67
Good times
But when i got home i was just on a downer and still am now tbh :/

Not gunna mention why coz again jinxing it :/
I'm gunna shut up now xD

Peace Out :)

My First Blog xD

2009-06-03T18:01:00.000-07:00

Okay, So this is my First blog so, Cut me some slack.
Right first i'm just gunna say how i'm gunna do this.
i'm going to try and write daily.
So Yeah i'm just gunna tell you about, Today?

Okay pretty boring day, Woke up at 13:08 to a text.
nothing special just a text off Jenifer which was like one hour old.
but i text back anyway and ended up have a cool conversation.
which later on i got told she got a debt for text in class Hahaha.
Then i had a bath :) and Tried to get people to come out but noone did :/
later on i went and sat in the garden with a nice glass of OJ but not for long
as it got chilli.
then i went into the kitchen with my laptop and made food while on msn to jen.
but then it over heated. not to unuseual. but i turned it back on and it crashed
and kept on crashing. Now i have to use it on safemode and still becareful ;/

but then later on something happened that i'm not going to put becuase i dont wanna
mention it just yet :):)

but also. my mum had a go at me ;/
Becuase apparently i'm a tramp. i wasn't brought up like that blah blah.
tbh i don't even care xD

So yeah thats my first blog :)
Ciao xx